Underneath this blanket of anger
lies a mattress of hurt
and a box spring of fear.
I lay me down to sleep
with my head on a stone
for a pillow as peace escapes me.
Wrestling throughout the night
even in sleep I long for answers
as principalities swirl all about.
Bathed in unrest and bitterness
tears anoint the place where I laid
and so I rise to face another day.
Yea, though I struggle and am now
marked by the peculiarity of Jacob
I have seen God face to face.
The answers to my heart’s burdens still
escape me and riddle me daily but
nonetheless I march on with knowledge of HIM.
I have seen HIS glory and yet lived to tell
of HIM so therein I can lean upon the firm hope
of HIS steadfast love and blessed promises.
The gifts and things on which I previously relied
have lost their glitter and their value
when now it is HIS glory for which I live.
In humility and in greater dependence
I walk as a cripple still not knowing
yet in full knowledge of HIM alone.
In the full knowledge of HIS Sovereignty
I will soldier on as the baggage I carry
becomes lighter and lighter still.
From within my infirmity I have been
delivered, healed and given a new stride
which signifies to all the presence of HIM.
From within my infirmity my praise
becomes the message that it is HE who heals
and delivers and redeems those who lean on HIM.
In the night, in the dark hours
In the night, in deep sleep
the enemy of rest came
with dreams to unsettle me.
But alas, he should have known
that once I awoke, his power would be broken
when my mind became alert and remembered
the truth of what the Prince of Peace has proclaimed.
The Prince of Peace has called me HIS own
and HE is good and HIS banner over me is love
in all that HE does and all that HE provides
and all that HE proclaims is a reflection of HIM.
In HIM, I am accepted and I am HIS beloved
and in HIM, I have peace and I have strength
and in HIM, I am worthy and I have value
and in HIM, I am somebody and I have purpose.
So under the cover of darkness
and when I am vulnerable
come at me with all your might
and riddle me with your ungodliness.
In the morning, when in the Light
In the morning, when exposed by Truth
who you are and what you do
will no longer have any power.
For by HIM, you will be destroyed
and HIS reign over you will be eternal
and HE will be magnified forevermore
and HE will have the last say. Amen.
It is better than a cup of coffee.
It is better than a cup of tea.
It is better than chocolate.
It is better than a new pair of shoes.
It is better than my favorite book.
It is better than my car, home and things within.
I am blessed with everything I have, indeed all from HIM.
It is those that HE sends my way who love me through HIM.
It is the peace with God and of God.
It is the love of God and from God.
All other these better things are nice and all that.
But the greatest things in life are from HIM.
It is the stretch marks that birthed new life and love.
It is the scars of healing from surgery and wounds.
It is the beauty from ashes of a heart consumed.
It is the protection that comes from sacrificial obedience.
It is the presence of another who needs and values me.
It is the overflowing grace and precious freedom of divine Love.