One step beyond my world is peace.
One step beyond my sphere of control is healing.
One step beyond my comfort zone is abundance.
One step beyond my system of survival is freedom of life.
My world is chaotic with the rumblings of anger and thinly veiled torpedos of hate. I sit at the table of resentment and feed on the fruit of bitterness. My back is never to the door, for I must always be prepared for any attacker that may enter and surely those who are not for me explicitly are threats by implication.
Those that know me accept that I am not perfect but I am consistent. My passion and my loyalty cannot be matched. What I set my mind to do, I will do, even if it means the death of me. If there is something that needs to be done, I will do it, even when I do not have the skills, resources or tools to carry out the task. It is simply too expensive to ask and too much of a risk to allow someone else to mess around. Mess around with me and I will surely make you pay and you will think twice about doing it again.
My duties are endless, because others only half way do the job. There is always so much to do, because I have to take up the slack and make up for the incompetence of others. I am responsible for me, myself and mine so that mine can have the life I’ve always wanted. This is my life and this is my goal. But one day I will be able to enjoy my little corner of the universe for surely sacrificing myself will be worth it when I see mine happy and free.
Everyone I know flits across the globe and flutters at the sales racks. They all have bodies that are slim, toned and tanned. Their flowing manes show no signs of grey; their faces show no wrinkle of age. Their accessories jingle when they walk; their chatter is light-hearted when they talk. They find new love interests just as quickly as the tears dry from the previous good-bye. They have not a care in the world except where to go for their next long weekend. But I am happy in my little corner of the world; it is all mine and I’ve worked hard to fortify it. No one can take that away from me.